Frustration and Anger

It has been 6 days and still the anger, the frustration that I feel has not abated. I still feel helpless, I am still angry on our politicians & the famed “intelligence”. What the fuck were you doing when there had been ample signs of something big about to happen? And as is always the case, security was “beefed up” across India after the incident had taken place. These measures would be in place for about a week, since this was a big incident let us make it 2 weeks, and than the security would be back to normal meaning non-existent and then we wait again for the next incident. In Taj, Ratan Tata himself admits, all security was only at the front gate (that too nominal), and the back door was held wide open for the terrorists to make a firing entrance! Do people seriously believe that putting up a solitary guard or two with generally a stick would stop terrorists who are toting AK-47s? Are they stupid enough not to know about the back doors? But no, I do not have any complains of Taj, yes they could have had better security but then it is the responsibility of the government that these people should not even reach Indian waters, leave alone Mumbai, or Delhi, or Hyderabad, or Bangalore, or any other town/city. Last year there was a report that the terrorists could enter from the sea route, and I had read some hundreds of crores were being spent to increase the security. I would love to know what percent of that amount actually was used for security.

Since the Mumbai incident I have been reading that people are getting serious about voting and choosing proper leaders. I totally support this decision, but then my cynical mind set in as I remembered some interesting facts. Did you know that two of the most powerful figures in Indian politics just before the blasts – namely the PM Manmohan Singh, and the home minister Shivraj Patil – both did not win the elections in 2004. Manmohan Singh till date has never won any Lok Sabha election and Shivraj Patil lost the election from Latur. How are they still ministers, you ask? Indian politics has left a back door entry here too. They are Rajya Sabha members, and hence not elected by people directly. So the command of the country is in the hands of two people who were not elected by the people. Remind me somebody, isn’t India a democracy meaning that the leaders are elected by the populace? Who elected the PM and the home minister? We certainly did not. So what the fuck does an election stand for? Nothing, it seems. We say that we do not want these people, and yet they are the decision makers!

The terrorists entered the Taj through the back door, and our “esteemed leaders” entered the government through the back door of Rajya Sabha!

I have never felt this angry and this depressed over anything. You know the hollow feeling inside you that nothing is right in this world, I have had that since the start of this attack. I am shamed to say this, but we had been attuned to the bomb blasts. We were shocked by what we saw, in a day or two we would be back to our normal lives. Not this time, the attack is still on in my mind, I have not been able to concentrate on anything. I read a joke, I laugh, and I feel hollow. I read about Cricket, it has no importance, I feel hollow. I plug in the music, within seconds I stop the music, and I feel hollow. I see people around me go in with their normal lives, laugh normally, and I feel hollow. I am hundreds of mile away from the attack zone, and I feel hollow. I just wish I could line up the terrorists, and give them the slowest most painful death ever possible. Call me sadistic, but maybe, maybe after that I’ll feel a tad better.